So…I do not know who/what to credit my calmness too. Today I had an appointment with my therapist, whom I have been seeing for almost a year, so she knows me really well! Anyhow, within the first few minutes, she says to me, “You are really chill. Are you ok?”….I looked at her a little puzzled, then realized, she is used to seeing the uptight, full of anxiety, and panic me. “Wow”, I thought, “what can I blame this on?”.
I have struggled with Panic Attacks and Anxiety since I can remember. My detailed, first recollection of a Panic Attack, I was 17 yrs old and driving down the highway. It was just like any other day, or so I thought. A day that landed me in the E.R. with a Doctor telling me I needed to get my heart checked. If you are prone to Anxiety, Panic Attacks or anything alike, you can only imagine how I was for the next 6 months.
I am now, 41 yrs old and I still fight Panic Attacks and Anxiety. Throughout my life, they would pop up and the episodes, as I like to call them, would last anywhere from a few months to a few years. These attacks would render me in the hospital getting EKG’s, blood work and hanging out for hours to be “watched”. They landed me in several Mental Health Clinics, trying to get help. I cannot tell you how many “diagnoses” I have on my record!
If there ever was a name for it, I have had it on my list. After years and years, I finally found one doctor who said, “You have Panic Disorder and Adjustment disorder with anxious features”. That is it. WHAT? So you mean I am not crazy? I am not bipolar? I do not have Manic Mood Disorder? Or OCD? or ADHD?
Medical Definition of each can be found HERE
So, have I found a cure? NO, but I have found A NEW WAY that has me relaxed. My jaw no longer hurts, it is not hard to breathe, I am not shaking (ever anymore), My mind seems to have overcome it. I do still have a few days in which my body feels anxious, but my mind does not, and when that has happened, I have been able to push through without needing to take a pill.
Message me or leave a comment below and let me know what has worked for you. If you have not found anything, let me know that too!
Cheers to happier, healthier years ahead!